Seriously!!!

I haven't posted in nearly a month! Am I nuts? Naw! Just living life. Things have been good. I have honestly found a niche in exercise. I go to Best Fitness pretty much everyday and I really like the time I spend there. I am building muscle and endurance. Mostly, I am feeling good about me.

Had a bad episode today though. I went in planning to walk 5 minutes then run 20, then walk 5. But I changed my course and started to run at a 10 minute mile. So at 25 minutes I had ran over 2 miles and decided to run to 30 minutes and then walk into cool down. this was fine, and I felt good, but somewhere in the 30 minutes range I decided to run fast like I was completing the Freihofer's race. I ran way too fast and it was too much. I did my 5 K in about 35 minutes (rememeber that the first 5 of it was walking) and then I felt a little short of breath. My heart rate was 147! The chart on the machine said at 40 the HR should be 142 for 80% HR. I was so maxed out! It freaked me out! I immediately went down to walking and visualized calm. My HR went down quickly and by 2 minutes was lower than 120, but still it freaked me out.

So then, as if that's not bad enough...I have a freakin anxiety attack over my heart being stressed out!!!!!!! So then I''m trying to releave that and lower my HR simutaneously! Duh!

Oh it get's better! I decided to drink a glass of red wine! They say red wine is healthy! Well I did! 5 months sober and I broke it. I'm okay today about it. I don't want to go back to the drinking. I have my health to focus on and it's far too important. But some red wine can be good, just not too much.

I need to run a little less and a little slower! My heart will grow stronger as any muscle does, but I want to work up to it. I think my darn stamina exceeeds my cardio strength!

Tomorrow is a day off. Then back on Tuesday! :D

A poetry prompt

Whooo! How exactly do you spell that exclamation you make when you’ve done quite a lot and feel slightly tired but really accomplished? It’s been a busy vacation in every way possible and I am returning to work tomorrow feeling tidied up! As I was cleaning I came across several writings that I began at a writing class and meant to make into blog posts, but never did. So this first one, which was all about using poetry to inspire writing, is from that class.

The writing is raw, but honest. I think of all the writing I put my students through. I’d like to think I’d never ask them to do something I would not, but I do. How? Well if I won’t share my work, if I won’t dare to expose myself, then how can I ask the same of them?

So here is post one of the “raw” free write inspired stuff! The prompt was simple:

Start with “I am...” and ramble on:


I am cacophony
At once the noise of many
As I dance through the scene on a stage.
I am bright water
Churning, crystal, wetting rocks and earth
As I glide.
I am the sound of music
Twirling dizzy like the leaves
As I wonder.

I am my telephone number, my house number, my age.
And I am none of these.
I used to think I’d know the Answer first at 23,
Then 30, then 35-
But no number will ever hold a magic answer for me.

I am not poetry
Words that sing in metaphor,
Pounding rhythm and mystical rhyme.
I am facts, square and strong
But I’d like to think that square’s gotten rounded over time.
I am a spiral
Starting at my center and extending outward round and round.